I had an wild and incredible night. I ran into so many old friends, some I hadn’t seen in 2 or 3 years. We talked, hugged and caught up. That night was so much more than the BCCAs for my, although the affair was incredibly fitting. It was an opportunity to remind myself that I do have a place in the blogging and body positive community. It was a chance for people I cared about to tell me how much they missed me, missed my presence online and in person. It was a chance for me to challenge and push myself. To those who don’t suffer from crippling anxiety on a daily basis, this all might seem strange to you. But for those of us who do, you’ll understand exactly why this night was so special to me.