Last Friday was my 30th birthday and I had every intention of making this post on that day. Forgive my poor time management (I’m only really apologizing to myself here), things got too hectic to make this post.
The day before I turned 20, I bawled my teenage eyes out. I couldn’t imagine being a grown up, or what being a twenty-year old would feel like. Little did I know how much I’d miss that transition. Now that I’m officially no longer a twenty-something year old, I wanted to take a look back on what life was like for me.
In my 30 years on planet earth, I’ve learned a thing or two. Lessons have been thrown my way that I never anticipated, while others often repeated themselves until I learned the cause (lets face it, I’m still going through this). Wholeheartedly, I miss my twenties but I’m suddenly realizing that maybe my thirties is where it all begins. This is a big, scary transition for me and I’d like to have document that, even if this only serves me.
Is it strange to dress up specifically for the post office? Because, I definitely did that. I had to make a quick trip to the local post office and I just couldn’t resist snapping some photos in front. Its such a neat, old fashioned looking building thats so unlike anything we have in Canada.
A lot of really neat, really exciting things have happened for me in my adult life because of the body positive community. It has introduced me to a lot of kind, caring and genuine people who I am happy to say I know. I’ve known of Rebecca of Rebecca Northcott Photography for quite some time now. I’ve always looked at her photographer in awe and admired the skill she has to capture beautiful moments. Working with her has been on my list of “things I want to do” for a very long time, so when she mentioned wanting to photograph me, I was in heaven. At first, I was a bit nervous but she made me feel at ease. We worked together on a vision, both of us collaborating on an outfit, location, accessories and all. I genuinely felt so comfortable around her, and she never left me feeling unsure of myself. She doesn’t know it, but this photoshoot meant a lot for me. The past year has been such a whirlwind for me, and it has been a struggle to keep my head above water plenty of times. Like many others, I have a strong tendency to doubt myself and my abilities constantly. I can be too hard on myself, constantly questioning whether or not something is even good enough to put out there. All of that went through my head before seeing Rebecca, but the second she started shooting, all of it went away. None of this is sponsored, only words from my heart. Please, please consider Rebecca Northcott Photography if you’re in the GTA!
I’ve added some of my favourite shots after the cut, and I’m so excited to share them with you. As per usual, outfit details will be listed at the very bottom!
This weekend was a bit of a whirlwind for me, to say the least. I did a lot of soul searching, asked my some pretty serious questions and came up with a pretty serious response. I’m not happy about where my life is right now. I’ve neglected a lot of the things I love and care about and put a lot of my hobbies on the back burner. This blog used to be everything to me Comparison and insecurities came into the mix and before I knew it, I had abandoned something I loved almost entirely. So, today was all about getting out of my comfort zone and into a routine again.
I’m not convinced I can pull of the half pony but kudos to me for trying, right? Its still kind of strange to just have my face out there, without hair to cover it. I’ve always been a tad bit insecure about the roundness of my face and my nose in general. I caved and took my hair down (hence the two different looks in these photos) but now that I look back, I’m kind of digging my hair half up. Which one do you prefer? Half up and completely down?
Top – Modcloth
Cardigan – Wal Mart
Skirt – Old Navy
Pantyhose – Wal Mart
Earrings – Shop Miss A
Shoes – Clothing Swap
After a recent trip to the doctor, I got the news that my fat body is starting to affect my health. Its not major, its minimal but without acknowledging my current heath it could get worse. I haven’t felt my best in the last little while so it doesn’t come as a surprise. My doctor, God bless her, has never made me feel like my weight was an impending death sentence. She very politely and respectfully told me she suspected my health issue could be a result of my weight but wanted to run other tests to absolutely be certain it wasn’t the cause of something else. In the doctor category, I lucked out. Big time (no pun intended).