I’m going to admit something here I never thought I’d admit publicly – being in lingerie really stresses me out since turning 30. I have this weird aversion to putting on lingerie because well, my body looks a little different than it did in my 20s. I haven’t felt as good, or as confident since I hit the big 3-0 and that’s a really hard thing for me to admit here to all of you. Realizing this, and being the body positive gal that I am, I decided to place an order for lingerie to really push my limits and get comfortable in the skin I’m in. With the help of Adam & Eve, I filled my cart with lingerie that might have excited me in my 20s, but made me a little nervous now.
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When I pulled this blush, lace teddy from the package, I felt that feeling of excitement again. I’ll admit, some anxiety as well. I kept worrying it might not look right, or fit right and after slipping it on, I gasped. Immediately taking to my phone, I snapped photos and sent them to my group chat to get the support of my best girlfriends. They couldn’t agree more; this beautiful piece looked stunning on me. For those wondering, yes I did grab the queen size, which isn’t always reliable for fat bodies but I found it comfortable on my size 2x/3x body.
As I looked at myself in a piece of lingerie I might have otherwise ruled out, I had a bit of a moment. One of those moments where I kinda laughed at how silly the mind can be. I’ve learned how to understand when I’m being hard on my body because of my weight, but I’m still learning how to treat myself better as a 30-something year old. Ageism is real, and so internalized in all of us, and sometimes its hard to even recognize that its holding you back in life.
So, in a celebration of my beautiful body that has served me well for the past 31 years, I wanted to share these with all of you. I wanted to remind all of you that we can be our own worst critics, but we’re capable of being our biggest cheerleaders as well. If lingerie scares of, like it has with me, I want to invite you to try it on and celebrate you.