The 2nd (hopefully annual) Big Deal Toronto Pop Up Shop took place yesterday and boy, what a day it was! Some of you may remember my post about this event last year but for those who don’t, let me fill you in! BDT is an event organized by fellow Canadian blogger Karen Ward
in which a bunch of local bloggers come out to sell their gently used clothing. I came back to sell my clothing with bloggers like Sadia of RawrManifesto, Sasha from Flaws of Couture, Amarina from Ursa Major Fashion and Alison from Round Raglan Road. This year Karen opted for an even larger, air condition venue which conveniently served alcohol and food. The turnout was so large and impressive that it left most of us feeling like we had been there for hours when barely any time had passed at all. I managed to snatch up some really, really lovely pieces myself prior to the doors opening. Anxiety aside, I had a really lovely, amazing time. Karen really put herself into this event (as she does with all them) and her effort really showed. I’m quite impressed with how quickly she pulled this together and how most every detail was thought out and carefully planned. I cannot wait for next year’s event and really hope to be selling there again!
Now as for what I wore: I went for this gorgeous green checkered eShakti dress. I spent so long contemplating whether or not I actually wanted to keep this piece but after throwing it on and looking at it a little more, I realized just how beautiful it is. I felt pretty dang cute in this piece and I really loved dressed it up too. I don’t even think you can really see my adorable apple earrings! My only complaint is that the colouring is a little off from what was pictured on the website. In fact most of my recent eShakti purchases haven’t really matched up to what the website shows. What gives, eShakti? Has anyone else had this problem or did I just get a bad batch? Either way, I’m still a loyal customer and highly suggest checking out their store. I’m pretty darn sure this dress is still available and it comes in black & white too!
Dress – eShakti
Earrings – Aldo
Shoes – Walmart
When I was a little girl I used to dream of being something someday. Mind you, my dreams and aspirations have changed along the way but I will never forget the feeling of excitement I got when I thought about my future. Now as a 25 year old, I’m somewhere in between therapist and stylist but nonetheless, I’m sort of set. One thing that comes with the territory of my chosen path is being a social butterfly. The events, being recognized in public, smoozing with very important people, its all part of the process. Glamourous as that might sound, it most certainly comes at a cost. Now, I hardly get really personal on this blog but I felt a nagging need to expose a really vulnerable side of myself. Who knows, this might end up being helpful for someone just passing along or even a chance for me to find some support within this crazy, fast paced, glitz and glamour world.
I have social anxiety. Not something often talked about but its a major part of the way I operate. I never really knew how to explain myself to friends in high school when I’d either get too loud or too quiet in a room full of people. I couldn’t understand why I’d start feeling tight chested and choked up either. But there it was, a word to describe what was happening to me and already I felt clearer about it. A little relieved to know it wasn’t just me either, that many people could and do feel something similar to what I do. I wasn’t crazy, I wasn’t alone and I shouldn’t be ashamed. And thats part of it, feeling too ashamed to even admit that you’re having trouble breathing, trying to keep yourself from shaking or even having trouble getting your thoughts out. Its a painful, scary place to be in. If you’re a sufferer, you don’t need me to go on with a list of symptoms. I’m certain you’ve already experienced your fair share of terribly uncomfortable moments.
It kind of goes without saying that as a blogger or any sort of fashion related job, you’re going to need to be social. This is probably why I spent forever talking myself out of the role. Taking a step into a full room of people can be one of the most paralyzing actions for me and thats hard to admit. Even now I feel incredibly anxious over making this post. “Will I make a fool out of my admitting this? Are people going to just assume I’m being overdramatic? Oh god I should just delete all of this right now and no one will ever know”. Yet here I am, admitting to whoever has the patience to read this, my dirty little secret. Because here’s the thing about social anxiety. Its crippling and terrifying but somewhere along the way you’ve gotta take charge. I’m trying to take charge by admitted something that could both help me and others to be vocal about.
Let’s face it, taking pictures on your iPhone is a lot easier than setting up a tripod and snapping shots that way. Most of my most recent outfit posts can be found on my instagram
so if you’d like to keep up follow me @tonsablush
If you’re wondering where I’ve been lately, don’t worry I intend to get back into the swing of things shortly. I moved recently (so long beautiful room!) and travel quite often to see my boyfriend in Boston but things are beginning to settle down and I wanna give this blog the attention I used to. In the mean time, check out some of my fav outfits and hopefully I’ll see you over on instagram!
Now that its summer we (or maybe I) can go into obsessive sunglasses buying mode. There are so many great options out there and most of the time I end up buying more pairs than I actually need. SmartBuyGlasses and I are teaming up to give you a chance to win a $150 coupon towards designer frames! What a freakin’ steal, right?
… and the winner is Haley Beets!!! I will be contacting you shortly for your information. Congrats!